Dark.
She only sat there, face blank, emotionless.
It hurt so much to look at that pale, blank face that stared endlessly into the window beside her, eyes reflecting nothing but darkness and when i looked into her eyes, I was captured by a sense of dread. Her eyes enclosed me in the darkness, chilling me to the bones,wrapping me in a blanket or doubt and fear.
She reminded me of death.
I waited for the response. The silky voice purred out to me, "I don't know, stranger. Do you know?"
I took in a sharp breath and it burnt my throat.
"No."
+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+
Ahh...That felt totally mucho awesum.
THE CA'S ARE OVER~
I can rest! And go out with my BFFL! Can't wait.
A bowl of scrumptious COOKIE dough.
Navigate using the bars ( the cool, coourful ones) above
If you think you need some lovin'~
By Pomplamoose Music!~~ below)
If you think i'll give you money, well honey that's just funny cuz i got none.
No money, ain't got no money.
If you just want conversation go somewhere in the nation, not my house.
But if you think you need some lovin, that's fine.
Cuz if you think you need some money, well you can't have mine,
and if you want some conversation try a pickup line.
But if you think you need some lovin, that's fine.
If you think you need a shrink, you're draining down the sink, go take a hike.
Ain't got no time for your baggage.
If you think you need a fix, don't put me in the mix, just stick to wine.
Whine, wine, whine, wine, whine, wine.
But if you think you need some lovin, that's fine.
Cuz if you think you need a shrink, well I'm out of time.
And if you think you need a fix, I'm not the fixing kind.
But if you think you need some lovin, that's fine.
P R O F I L E
~Who am I~
はじめまして~ The name's Niki Just Niki, not Cassandra. I love My Manga, and of Food too. Frankly Im quite the gastromaniac.
Has many BFFL. Big fan of cosplay and quite the cosplayer Myself. I <3 Music. And alot of things.The CURRENT Love, who by the way is
I currently study in Green Apron/veggie like School and is sec ....something. Around 15, but going up..
Niki won't tell you her class so if you don't know, too bad for you.
My B'day is the 9th of Febby. I hate a few people. And I know alot more than I should, I warn you....
S O M E
RANDOM FACTS
RANDOM FACTS
Well, I am 15+/-, so around those amount of facts then?
ONE I am, Yes, Quite Nuts. Have Nutty friends too. More nutty than me.
TWO No, I'm not a sporty person. the calve Muscles LIE. (Wish SF And NC will just leave them alone ;A;
THREE I dont like people that play around too much. WHEN I'M TRYING TO DO WORK. (Still can't take it.)
FOUR I want MORE BJD's (Dollzone Joe, Migidoll Shion)
FIVE I WANNA GO JAAAPAN!~ LONDON!~ ROME!~ (Japan and London complete. Now aiming to go, AGAIN!)
SIX I like gothic.Punk stuff, yes, But I also Love lolita
SEVEN I'm quite the cusser. (Still am.)
EIGHT No, My accent I know of. But no, I'm not British.
NINE Go to my friends blogs please. they, like, rock too. Oh, and Tag
TENANNOUNCEMENT: Im really sensitive. Deep down inside where the sun dont shine.
ELEVEN I love my iPhone. I love it so much.
TWELVE I love Jpop. However, I like Jrock too. This also means Visual Kei. I listen to a bit of hard rock and death metal.
THIRTEEN I play loads of computer games. (More than I look like I do.)
FOURTEEN I enjoy books and Cds. As outdated as they get. (THE CARPENTERS <3 )
FIFTEEN 世界の御姫さま.
T O D O L I S T
Nothing. But cuss about the sadness, the shit, and also to Laugh About the fun times with my friends.
My Friends...ARE AWESOME and FUN and always in RETARDED situations.
*sigh* Boy do I like them. AS FRIENDS!~~~~ I love you, my sweet~
T A G B O A R D
Tag Me ^w^
Random story...
5:34 AM - Thursday, April 30, 2009
Pissy off friday... or saturday.
2:06 AM - Saturday, April 25, 2009
I feel like poop. Not sure why yet, but I feel like crap.
I dunno...finish science chapter 4 and 5 or just 5?
And Cheryl,
Nature and
Abigail hate me.
WHY? I blamed one and 2 blamed me.
Science wkbk, blah blah blah... Cheryl wasn't happy with what I said. So she's pissed.
I encouraged claire to go say her talk for chinese.
She was ready.
I wasn't the only one who told her to.
She went, " wah lao, you all sabo me..."
Then abigail gave me this look and went,
" Why you sabo claire?"
"What? She was rdy what..." ( Me)
"Do you like people to sabo you niki?" (Nature)
"No I don't." (Abigail)
"When did you turn into the second me?"(me)
*ignored.*
I kicked up this huge pissed off fuss.
For the first time this year, I BLEW UP at my teacher.
I knocked down my chair, didn't apologise, and yelled.
I LOST MY TEMPER. THAT WASN'T EVEN 10% OF WHAT I CAN THROW OUT, PEOPLE.
Talk about super pissed-ness.
I would like to remind you guys:
What you say has power. It can make some people do things. Rash, Violent things.
Understad this.
There is a law of equivalant exchange.
We follow it, regardless.
What you do to someone, it'll come back round and kicked you in the arse.
I'll be there to kick you with pleasure.
I dunno...finish science chapter 4 and 5 or just 5?
And Cheryl,
Nature and
Abigail hate me.
WHY? I blamed one and 2 blamed me.
Science wkbk, blah blah blah... Cheryl wasn't happy with what I said. So she's pissed.
I encouraged claire to go say her talk for chinese.
She was ready.
I wasn't the only one who told her to.
She went, " wah lao, you all sabo me..."
Then abigail gave me this look and went,
" Why you sabo claire?"
"What? She was rdy what..." ( Me)
"Do you like people to sabo you niki?" (Nature)
"No I don't." (Abigail)
"When did you turn into the second me?"(me)
*ignored.*
I kicked up this huge pissed off fuss.
For the first time this year, I BLEW UP at my teacher.
I knocked down my chair, didn't apologise, and yelled.
I LOST MY TEMPER. THAT WASN'T EVEN 10% OF WHAT I CAN THROW OUT, PEOPLE.
Talk about super pissed-ness.
I would like to remind you guys:
What you say has power. It can make some people do things. Rash, Violent things.
Understad this.
There is a law of equivalant exchange.
We follow it, regardless.
What you do to someone, it'll come back round and kicked you in the arse.
I'll be there to kick you with pleasure.
I'm in a wreck.
6:11 AM - Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I have ever contemplated suicide.
I dont care if I doe.
I told my dad that once.
He nearly kicked me out of the car on the ECP.
Not that I cared.
My eldest, I mean eldest ( not the one that plays harp) cousin ran away.
I wanted to meet her.
Why?
We have sucky lives.
We're so alike.
Instead of wasting precious net space I'll just rant. My Life isn't that great. I hate the slience every morning in the car. Thats why I block it out with music. I come home to only be able to talk to my computer. Why? No one understands me. Its okay, I lived. Its okay, i'm not expecting you to understand. I get it.
Seriously!
I get it.
I dont care if I doe.
I told my dad that once.
He nearly kicked me out of the car on the ECP.
Not that I cared.
My eldest, I mean eldest ( not the one that plays harp) cousin ran away.
I wanted to meet her.
Why?
We have sucky lives.
We're so alike.
Instead of wasting precious net space I'll just rant. My Life isn't that great. I hate the slience every morning in the car. Thats why I block it out with music. I come home to only be able to talk to my computer. Why? No one understands me. Its okay, I lived. Its okay, i'm not expecting you to understand. I get it.
Seriously!
I get it.
This sucks.
2:48 AM - Monday, April 13, 2009
I dunno why. But I have a sudden sensation to avoid someone.
For a long time.
It was really so sucky.
This is the first time I could completely avoid a single person over a long period.
Wow. I must really hate that person.
Either that, or they really pissed me off.
And guess what?
I can still act normal without her.
Go me..
and my new, sadistic ego.
Sometimes,
I do love it.
Sometimes,
It makes me sad.
This situation?
I feel No pain.
No sadness.
Just the same.
For a long time.
It was really so sucky.
This is the first time I could completely avoid a single person over a long period.
Wow. I must really hate that person.
Either that, or they really pissed me off.
And guess what?
I can still act normal without her.
Go me..
and my new, sadistic ego.
Sometimes,
I do love it.
Sometimes,
It makes me sad.
This situation?
I feel No pain.
No sadness.
Just the same.
TAGGED!~
4:32 AM - Friday, April 10, 2009
Um... List 14 random people, right?
1) Gem Tan
2) Natasha C.
3) Michelle Chia
4) Claire soh
5) Lee Su Fang
6) Cheryl Yeo
7) Soo Ji
8) Nicole Chan
9) Roxanne
10) Sarah HL
11) Sinchita
12) Jazzerene
13) Raashi
14) Olymphia
Now answer 14 questions! ( OHNO.)
1) Do you think 1 likes someone in her school?-Gem
HECK NO! She went chasing after guys with a plastic kunai before. I did it with her :D No regrets there.
2) Does 14 like 5 ( In a way thats more than just friends)?-Sufang & Olym
Um, no! They're not lesbo, pal. I think we should all keep it that way.
3) Do you think 6 is a good dancer?-Cheryl
Yes, in a good, crazy, totally enthu way. :)
4)How long has it been since you've seen 9?-Roxanne
Um, yesterday?
5)Do you think 2 should date 7?-Natasha and Soo Ji
HELL NO! Nate acts and dresses like a guy, but she's not lesbo! And Soo Ji is too nice to be lesbo, freaks!
6) Have you seen 17 in any weird emotion before?-Raashi
Um... Yeah. She was saying she was depressed but she was smiling and stuff. Queer, but cool.
7) Would 4 read hentai?-Claire
Sorry claire, but my answer is- probably.
8) Is 10 a funny, hillarious person?-
Okay, I guess. She's super mega bubbly, tho she doesn't talk to me often ( anymore).
9) Can u picture 12 making out with a guy?-Jazzerene
EW NO! But i can see her dating a science textbook. 0.o
10) Would you kiss 11?-Sinchita
NOT IN MY LIFETIME, PAL!
11) If 14 asked you to go out with him/her, would you say yes?-Olym
Sorry, NO.
12)Is 3 your best friend?-Michelle
YES! I miss michelle like how John Swayer missed civilisation.
13) Could 8 ever be your bestie?-Nicole
Cant really picture it, but it is a possibility (if I become a nicer person, that is.)
14) Do you love chocolate?
RANDOM??!! But yeah- I love white chocolate.
1) Gem Tan
2) Natasha C.
3) Michelle Chia
4) Claire soh
5) Lee Su Fang
6) Cheryl Yeo
7) Soo Ji
8) Nicole Chan
9) Roxanne
10) Sarah HL
11) Sinchita
12) Jazzerene
13) Raashi
14) Olymphia
Now answer 14 questions! ( OHNO.)
1) Do you think 1 likes someone in her school?-Gem
HECK NO! She went chasing after guys with a plastic kunai before. I did it with her :D No regrets there.
2) Does 14 like 5 ( In a way thats more than just friends)?-Sufang & Olym
Um, no! They're not lesbo, pal. I think we should all keep it that way.
3) Do you think 6 is a good dancer?-Cheryl
Yes, in a good, crazy, totally enthu way. :)
4)How long has it been since you've seen 9?-Roxanne
Um, yesterday?
5)Do you think 2 should date 7?-Natasha and Soo Ji
HELL NO! Nate acts and dresses like a guy, but she's not lesbo! And Soo Ji is too nice to be lesbo, freaks!
6) Have you seen 17 in any weird emotion before?-Raashi
Um... Yeah. She was saying she was depressed but she was smiling and stuff. Queer, but cool.
7) Would 4 read hentai?-Claire
Sorry claire, but my answer is- probably.
8) Is 10 a funny, hillarious person?-
Okay, I guess. She's super mega bubbly, tho she doesn't talk to me often ( anymore).
9) Can u picture 12 making out with a guy?-Jazzerene
EW NO! But i can see her dating a science textbook. 0.o
10) Would you kiss 11?-Sinchita
NOT IN MY LIFETIME, PAL!
11) If 14 asked you to go out with him/her, would you say yes?-Olym
Sorry, NO.
12)Is 3 your best friend?-Michelle
YES! I miss michelle like how John Swayer missed civilisation.
13) Could 8 ever be your bestie?-Nicole
Cant really picture it, but it is a possibility (if I become a nicer person, that is.)
14) Do you love chocolate?
RANDOM??!! But yeah- I love white chocolate.
OUCHIES! My head...
5:24 AM - Monday, April 6, 2009
OW!
Having tuition has never been this painful on my brain. I'm looking forward to the popcorn tomorrow. I'm making it~ WHEE!~ This is gonna taste so good. Claire, sharing it is a no-no. Its MINE! MUHAHAHAHA! LoL, I feel super dumb today. Somebody just pisses me off, and then I found out the most disgusting thing ever! I could puke, but, well, I decided to spare the beautiful ( yes, NT, its BEAUTIFUL) banner. And if she doesn't like it, well, scrw you! I love my banner.
That thing was made up of blood, sewat and pain. OKay? PAIN! Emotional pain, by the way. Can't find Kara's honey, so kinda sad. Spaced out during tuition, started on molecules. ARGH! Manymany black dots in a cube!
Tried to play bagatelle on guitar. Sounds lovely- this piece was MADE for the guitar. I think I failed history, cuz I really, mostly, kinda didn't study. Math teacher didn't come today, so this really, really weird and kooky ( in a good, educational way) teacher came in who still did not fail not piss me off.
LOL... Had a really good day tho.
~Niki
Having tuition has never been this painful on my brain. I'm looking forward to the popcorn tomorrow. I'm making it~ WHEE!~ This is gonna taste so good. Claire, sharing it is a no-no. Its MINE! MUHAHAHAHA! LoL, I feel super dumb today. Somebody just pisses me off, and then I found out the most disgusting thing ever! I could puke, but, well, I decided to spare the beautiful ( yes, NT, its BEAUTIFUL) banner. And if she doesn't like it, well, scrw you! I love my banner.
That thing was made up of blood, sewat and pain. OKay? PAIN! Emotional pain, by the way. Can't find Kara's honey, so kinda sad. Spaced out during tuition, started on molecules. ARGH! Manymany black dots in a cube!
Tried to play bagatelle on guitar. Sounds lovely- this piece was MADE for the guitar. I think I failed history, cuz I really, mostly, kinda didn't study. Math teacher didn't come today, so this really, really weird and kooky ( in a good, educational way) teacher came in who still did not fail not piss me off.
LOL... Had a really good day tho.
~Niki
Fufilling day~
5:05 AM - Friday, April 3, 2009
GOD!
We finally sat down and completed the stupid banner. For once, I'm so happy.
Except for claire falling down the stairs ( Ow)
Someone flaming some on their blog ( Ouchier)
And me kissing someone 4 times. ( ???WTF)
Sorry, i'm NOT joking. Its so true its...
Horrofic? NAW.
LOL-A-LICIOUS~
Okay, now I sound weird.
And I got kissed back once.
Kissing feels funny. ( Glad you know, stupid.)
Kissing someone you know as a friend is funnier. ( DUHHH.)
So what am I ranting about?
Those were my first 4 kisses...
LOL!!! Did I get you???!!!
Haha... Stoopit.
~Haru
We finally sat down and completed the stupid banner. For once, I'm so happy.
Except for claire falling down the stairs ( Ow)
Someone flaming some on their blog ( Ouchier)
And me kissing someone 4 times. ( ???WTF)
Sorry, i'm NOT joking. Its so true its...
Horrofic? NAW.
LOL-A-LICIOUS~
Okay, now I sound weird.
And I got kissed back once.
Kissing feels funny. ( Glad you know, stupid.)
Kissing someone you know as a friend is funnier. ( DUHHH.)
So what am I ranting about?
Those were my first 4 kisses...
LOL!!! Did I get you???!!!
Haha... Stoopit.
~Haru
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